Posted by Elaine (24.88.1.116) on January 28, 2000 at 16:40:03:
In Reply to: the end of my rope posted by Bryan Dennison on January 28, 2000 at 15:23:56:
Hi Bryan, I have been where you are. I lost my husbands love also, I guess he got tired of to many not to night I have a headache. I lost a few jobs ect.. Not only did my friends and family think I was nuts but Doctors too. I found this site and through it I have found ways to cope. I have found the right medication here. The best thing I found were people who understood. They have become dear friend. Friends I do not want to live with out.
Bryan read every thing on this site. I am chronic have been for 20 years when I came here I was having as many as eight a day just like you. I did try to kill myself. I sure am glad I didn't I am down to about four clusters a week now. I take Neurontin and Calan every day and I use imitrex injections for the clusters I get. I am not a doctor. I am not saying this will work for you. But check out the drugs people use that have helped them and ask your doctor about them.
A lot of people fear sleep. I use to, but I found out without sleep fighting the demon was harder. I found they come any way so I now sleep. In between them I enjoy as much as I can. I got CH and there is nothing I can do about it, so I go on as best I can. People who do not understand my pain it is there problem not mine. I learned not to care what they think. When I have a cluster I excuse myself and deal when its over I return. It is all I can do.
Please do not give up we are here and we do care.
Email any of us we are here to help click on our name inside our post and you will find our email address. There is hope here. Welcome to our site,I am sorry you have clusters but am glad you found us! Here you are never alone.