shaktima wrote on Jul 15th, 2008 at 4:22am:I know what you mean. I am into almost 3 mos of nonstop, every other night clusters hitting me during REM sleep, I am destroyed, exhausted. I cannot go to doctor as employer took away all of our insurance and do not have money to go to doctor. Am using Red Bull, Excedrin Migraine and prayer. I do not know when this is going to ever end, if it will. I am also dealing with enormous stress after the death of my precious father almost 3 months ago and I cannot get a break. All I freakin want is a good night's sleep with no pain! But that seems not to be. If there is a hell, this is truly hell for me. Is there any way to get oxygen without a prescription? Is there is any hope? I don't think so......I swear I could sleep for weeks if I just would not get these damned headaches! The pain is so bad, my head, my face, I live for ice, massage, pain meds. Maybe death really is a wonderful release. But I keep living in my pain, just really wanting to die....having to work and so exhausted. I tell ya, these damn headaches are making me almost suicidal.........there's gotta be something better than this! Three months, time to end already!
*tears*
This is the place to vent.... And we DO know how you feel.
I've been in a high cycle since about April (I'm chronic - my last "cycle" started in July of 97 and I've had very few PF days since then) - that's several hits a day, so I DO understand. But this will pass and we'll all get back to a "normal" lifestyle until the next time.
Try some melatonin (12-15mg) before bedtime. This has helped me get thru the night. Most of the time I sleep and it gives me the rest I need to get thru the day hits.
O2 helps abort the hits during the day (along with lots of coffee, Red Bull, some Excedrin - but be careful with the Excedrin they can cause rebounds).
Today, I had to be out visiting clients and got hit three times in a few hours (without my O2). It was a real fun day - thanks to Red Bull and Excedrin, I got thru my client calls and am now at home with my trusty O2.
But you live with these things for enough years, you learn to live to the fullest during the PF times and endure the painful times. That's what so great about this board. We all get to the "give up" point occasionally and come here and someone will kick our rear and we always feel better afterwards. I've been doing that for about 10 years now. Trust me - it works.
If you get really down - PM me your phone number and I'll call you or let me know and I'll send you mine (your call) and we'll talk one on one. But whatever - we're here for SUPPORT....
Hugs BD