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Hi moose, welcome. That link will take you to the GSK assistance program. Look around this site for some treatments that may help in the meantime. Energy drinks, taurine supplements, kudzu, etc. (Look at the old message board, too)
Look at the oxygen info link on the left. When you tried it, did you use 10-15 lpm of pure oxygen with a non-rebreather mask? Proper delivery can make all the difference.

We're here to help. 

pf wishes, nani

moose3113 wrote on Jul 13^th, 2008 at 12:44am:


I know what you're feeling, buddy. I've learned something in the 4 years I've been hanging around here ... Clusterheads are some of the toughest SOBs you will ever know. I've met many in person, and talked to more by phone, and I promise you ... you CAN take it. We totally get where you're coming from, and almost all of us has been where you are at right now, once or twice (or lots more).

But we come here, and we get our info, and support, and empathy, and we manage to make it through another day.

This hurts like a mofo, but it won't kill you. And "what don't kill ya, just makes ya stronger".

Hang in there, bro. We've got your back. 

moose3113 wrote on Jul 13^th, 2008 at 12:44am:


But you can take it.   

Not a one of us is any different.  There are some really dark holes out there when you're fighting this thing in the middle of the night, and the thing that you need most--a little peace, a little rest--are denied to you.  When even sleep is an enemy.      

I know it's hard to remember when you're in the grip of this evil thing, but there's life beyond each hit, and life's worth it. 

The attack ends.  It always does. 

I'm often here late at night--part of it is circumstance, because I live over towards the left coast, but part of it is so I can be here on the late watch for people who are fighting to get through the night. 

The other night, I was talking to another fellow who was fighting the same demon you are.  I told him that it's possible to see a hit through with nothing at all, and indeed, clusterheads for thousands of years have done so--because they had to.  That he could do it too, if necessary.  Endure it, and go on.  I think and hope he believed me, because it's one of the things that I know is true beyond question.      

At the end of the day, we're each of us alone against this thing.  We develop our resources, hone our weapons, and do battle with it.  We don't give in to it.  We fight.  We survive by becoming warriors, and cease to be victims.  We always win.   

As warriors, we do whatever it takes to see ourselves and those we care for through it.  We come to understand that there is nothing we cannot endure to do what is necessary--even this horror.

We all need something or someone once in awhile.  Lean on us when you need to, and lend your strength to someone else when you can.  You're stronger than you know. 

Someone here who is very wise says--"together we fight".  And we do.

All the best,

George

 I am fighting it right now too, in fact George from an earlier post may be talking about me.
Giving up is not an option, it will not win. we are with you. so stay with us!!!!
listen to these trusted ch veterans that have learned about their enemy and fought the fight and still fighting.
 With care and compassion they are sharing with us because we have the shared  enemy. They hold a virtual vigil Looking for that typed cry for help  like yours and mine.
not just to wrestle  the beast within our heads but to help us sometimes understand the doctors and THEM understand clusterheads, our spouses and loved ones who get frustrated. etc etc.
your are the future veteran along with me so we can't give up for our selves, for our loved ones and for the ch veterans that have helped us.
sorry : but i had a pf moment and i am a creative writer at heart.
ill get off my soapbox and slam an energy drnk now.

Moose, how'd your night go? Tell us, please.
PF wishes to you!
cathi

Moose... how are you doing? Please check in and let us know.

hugs, nani