rick405
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Just spent 3 years of being treated for migraines, being told that "it was in my head" and that "nothing could hurt that bad". Thousands upon thousands of dollars for CAT scans, MRIs, useless medications and trips to the ER that was 45 minutes away. I finally just quit going because nothing they did made the pain go away or even subside. Finally, after my last CAT scan, the Radiologist asked me if anyone had mentioned CLUSTER HEADACHES? Cluster Headache? Surly something so innocent sounding could not turn a 43 year old horse brakein, barbed wire chewing, tough as nails Cowboy into a head banging, clock watchin, foot stompin, crying, yelling, slobbering shell of a man? Cluster Headache? Now if they called it "White hot boiling lava behind your left eye headache" I could buy that. Cluster headache?... cluster of puppies running through a cluster of clover covered with the spring cluster dew..... it just did not sound painful enough. No, none had mentioned that, but I will check it out. So I went home and Googled CH. Wow there is really something called CH, hmm let me click on "symptoms". I sat there looking at the CH website and cried. For the first time my monster had a name, It was not going to kill me, no it was not "in my head", yes it really could hurt that bad, and I was not the only person this was happening to. I was not alone... WOO HOO! For the first time in a long time I almost felt good. I printed out all the information that I could find, mailed and faxed it to all the Doctors that had misdiagnosed me. Not because I wanted to say "SEE A$$ HOLE, I TOLD YOU SO!!!! But because no one should have to suffer needlessly. So now, when my monster comes to visit and I lay there in my floor crying, slobbering and holding onto my pillow like a dejected 2 year old, I take solace in the fact that I know I am not dying, that IT will go away and that if every now and again, I have to "entertain" the demon, just maybe for that night, it will not visit one of my brothers or sisters out there. I lay there and imagine in my mind each of you and your families sleeping so peacefully and comfortable. For me, with that thought in mind, the Monster does not win as hard as it may try. If your new to this please remember, YOU are not dying, IT will go away and most importantly, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. Rick
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