Here is a better picture of my dear sweet Cisco. He is, was
, an Australian Cattle dog. They are a mixture of dogs and dingo that was bred for the rough world of the Aussie Outback. He was the perfect dog. We got him when he was 6 weeks old, and Ayden was just 4. He used to run around Ayden in the yard, herding him to keep him on the grass where he was safe. He was extremely intelligent, and Clark had taught him many many tricks and he was loyal to a fault - whenever we visited my Mom in Canada, and we would have to take my two oldest kids to see their other grandparents, Cisco would park himself by the door and wouldn't budge until we returned. My Mom was always so amazed at how he was, she is a total cat person, and wasn't that keen on a dog coming to visit when we first got him, but she soon grew to love him as fiercely as we did. He was so well behaved and never damaged a thing. We told the kids when they got home from school, and they were completely devastated. It was a very difficult day and evening to say the least.
I want to thank everyone - my family here at ch.com for letting me tell you about him, and letting me share this with you. I need it more than you can know. Your positive energy helped him to fight, but in the end, his liver failed him. The vets are not certain what was wrong, but they were certain that it was a primary immune hemolitic (sp) anemia, and that combined with his seizures that they were never able to fully diagnose the cause of, was too much for his system and it shut down his liver.
I am simply raw, so completely devastated it is frightening to me. I love my animals as much as my kids, they are as much a part of our family as any human is - and in some cases of my relatives, more so. He gave us 4 wonderful loving years, and was just an incredible dog in every way. After I lost my Bandit when I was 18 years old, I never thought I could have another dog, the pain was just too great. It took me another 18 years before I could let myself love another dog, take the risk of the pain if I were to lose him. I don't know if I will ever be able to go through this again. My two cats that are left, Wiley and Zoomie are 16 and 11 years old - reality is that I will go through this pain again before long. With everything that has happened in my life since we moved to NC, I am just simply raw, completely devastated in a way I have not felt for many many years. I would take a million cluster attacks all 4 hours long and back to back to have him still with me - the pain would be a breeze compared to the agony I am in right now. Animals have always held a special place in my heart. Somehow, I have to find a way to mend my broken heart and torn soul. I would welcome all the hits the beast could throw at me right now, just to distract me from this pain in my heart and soul. I would take them gladly and not complain one bit if it could bring my Cisco puppy back to me.
Again, thank you everyone, for letting me vent and share my grief with my friends and family here.
And here is the source of so much joy, and now so much grief
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