Posted by Michael on August 11, 1998 at 10:51:17:
In Reply to: Tired of fighting the Demon posted by Jackie M. on August 07, 1998 at 21:20:30:
Jackie,
As one who has gone through about 95% of the CH with my wife, nearly everyday for the last 6 years, from 2 to 6 a day, I know from the giving up. More than once I have been asked "If I can't take this anymore, will you forgive me?" In my mind I say "Yes" because I love her, and because it likks me to see her suffer so. But I say No, because I can see tomorrow and the possibility of getting beyond these things - which has happened to some measure. We eliminated the MSG from the diet (in all forms) and the Tannin (whch sets off migraines - which she also contends with), and while we didn't beat the CH, we have at least stopped "pouring gas on the fire". It's a start Baby! My wife is terrified that I will think her a "wimp" for sometimes folding in when the CH is at its worst (like 11 on a scale of 10), but I tell her truthfully that NO ONE who contends with these things is a wimp in any way shape or form! I sure the hell don't think I could contend with them! I am constantly on this web site looking for clue to follow, and that has lead me to several things which have helped take the edge off and make her days at least survivable. Jackie just remember that you aren't beaten until YOU say you are! You might just be the one who, like most, stumbles on to the "key" which unlocks the answers for you as well as someone else - or everybody else! It's your choice, but you don't sound to me like anybody who would give up. Tired yes, discouraged yes, worn down yes, out numbered yes, but NOT defeated!
Find another way to fight back, change your tactics - and you change your results. Champions get knocked down too, the difference is that they keep getting back up. I'm going to be keeping an eye on you - looking for your success story, because I know you have one to give.