Posted by Riccardo Pentenero (194.116.8.25) on October 04, 1999 at 13:42:55:
In Reply to: THANK YOU EVERYONE posted by doug l on October 04, 1999 at 11:27:42:
I started to have CH when i was 26. In that time i was introubled with my first wife (i'm heterosexual, but i'm sure that's no difference) and planning the divorce.
Please take note: i'm italian, and my english is not too good :-) everything i say here is NOT a joke and I absolutely DON'T WANT to offend you.
Then the wife has gone, the CH not...... but i remember these times, was very sad and alone, but finally i jump out of that S*** with the help of my friends, and why not to say it,....with sex.
I understand (i have had, and still have some gay friend of mine) that your situation is a bit more difficult (might be better for your husband) the gay wife has a lot problem to fight against. You have said the cash panic at Supermarket, but the work, the public bus and trains, the doctors, the husband friends also are the same, I imagine.
In my opinion you have to mask (as you probably did in your early years) your lifestyle with all the people you do not care. This may help you to find again your health in depression. Otherwise, (may be another way, and i think not too good for you) spit all your hate on the same people faces.
And ask your husband to help you in the depression, the CH is a thing to fight alone, only with the "side help" of the love and comprehension of your husband. Try to exclude him from your pain (say this to him before!!!) and ask his help only if absolutely in need.
You could ask why i write all this here and not on your E-mail.... i preferred here to obtain other help from other people, and to be sure i do not say wrong words. Remember, as Todd said: this is a board for "white, black, red, green, polka dotted, male, female, whatever" you here are into a "ultra open mind" family.
With love and (hoping soon) pain free days