Posted by Karla (208.170.86.139) on November 21, 1999 at 14:50:25:
In Reply to: giving up... posted by Mr. Wizer on November 21, 1999 at 03:32:54:
I understand your frustration and grief. I have taken one medicine after another and had one failed aboritive attempt after another. There have been many days and times I have considered ending my life over the constant pain I often feel and the fear I often live in. However, I have found some light in all this. There are antidepresents to make the day more barable and friends here on CH.COM that do care, do understand, and would miss me. I have gone this year from having many headaches everyday to having horifying headaches one week or so out of the month. It has taken 6 different medicines to accomplish this but it is well worth it. I spent the last two nights in the ER getting pumped full of drugs that did not relieve my pain at all. That is what dispairs me. When I have 10's and they can't be lowered to a more barable level of pain. I live for the day when the dr's will have found an answer, a cure, an alternative to the pain I feel. Until then I survive on the love and compassion I feel here on this site by my "family members". We must refuse to loose and remember we are never alone. Keep the faith there will be better days ahead.