Posted by Carl D (208.4.16.226) on March 10, 2000 at 08:22:21:
Okay, I'm not gonna freak out or whine or anything (heck, who am I kidding?) I've been doing decent in the afternoon/evening time for the past few days, and yesterday was no exception. I was very active yesterday and can't help but feel it made a big difference through the night.
Since 2:00 a.m., I have been super-slammed with 3 major hardcore attacks. Couldn't get any sleep whatsoever, and my head is sore enough that nothing is helping. Right now I am on the verge of a nervous breakdown and if I don't get some sleep or rest... I might be on the verge of my ole' ticker either giving up or just freaking out on me. Seriously. I have had some wicked palpitations this morning, and at one point was thinking maybe it was a heart attack or something.
Trying not to stress out or anything, but it's kinda hard when you can't relax. Thats all I need is more health problems and more med bills. AAAARRRRRRRGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am soooooo freakin tired, especially after yesterday. Does anybody else increase the frequency, duration or intensity of attacks directly after alot of physical exertion? It seems when I am physically active, I am fine during that time period, but then later, when I wind down and begin to relax - BAM! I get hit harder than Sonny Bono did by that tree.
I still have what I refer to as the 'Cluster Taste' in my mouth. That tangy, mouth watering taste like I was staring at a lemon or something; kind of a tart-induced taste. Anyone familiar?
I'm trying to be calm, I'm trying to be mellow
So take the hot poker out of the head of this fellow...
In pieces,
Carl D "FREEk"
P.S. - In case I whined too much during this post, do not scorn me. Do not shame me...
Don't cry for me Augustina...
P.P.S. - Hey Phil, what is you email address? I sent you an email and it was returned undeliverable.
P.P.S.S. - I am working on "SCREAM 4" Down in the basement. I consists of me, punching the floor and screaming my vocal chords bloody. Whats your favorite scary movie?
P.P.P.S.S. - Forgive me, I am tired and know not what I do!