Posted by nancyc (63.10.151.229) on January 27, 2001 at 21:16:29:
I have been so grateful that I was able to get a computer to come on this site more. But I am so depressed..no matter how long I have dealt with clusters I feel like if I have to go thru them one more time that I won't make it. I know you guys hate to hear people whine but I feel like I have to express my feelings to someone. I have been so isolated because of the h/as that I can't deal with the lonliness much more. I am free of pain at the moment but because of the past pain I have pushed so many people that do not understand away. Forgive me for speaking my mind but I had to.. my job is at risk because of past absentees and I can't afford to lose it. Thanks for listening to my bitching but I am feeling so lonely that I do not know what to do. Why does this disease have to hurt and isolate you at the same time? Even though I have been painfree for a few months I have had to deal with the lonliness now that started when I was in my cycle. nancy c