Posted by Ted (18.104.22.168) on February 22, 2001 at 02:00:58:
In Reply to: Help! tying a knot.... just not sure how I intend to use it yet posted by tami on February 21, 2001 at 23:40:38:
This touched me in so many ways I can't tell you. Here is the cosmic point you must reach to even consider thinking you've reached before that thought should become more real. Have what you consider you've done bad even approached, spiritually for them, the pain you've felt physically? When you realize the answer is "no" will you consider one other thing? The key point to what you said about your kids? They are teenagers. THEY ARE TEENAGERS! You can go to pick them from school on St. Patricks Day inadvertantly wearing an orange bow in your hair and you are the bad guy/gal in their life. You don't need to have CHs for that to be their thoughts. They are growing up and you automatically are going to be the bad one. What you are going through isn't the problem. What they are going through, puberty, is.
I too hear from people "go on disability" and agree. It will kill me as well, no matter how many jobs I lose from this. My answer to myself is pretty simple. And mind you I am once again looking for another job presently because of these. The answer? Fuck it. Get another job. I plan on getting lots and lots and lots and lots of other jobs after my next one. The trick to being cool with that is understanding that we now live in an age where the employer no longer gives respect to the employee and all in all will get rid of us in a heartbeat. So we have to realize that the employers no longer should get the respect of us doing anything but trying to hide our problem until it suits us best to talk to them.
What I am really trying to say here is be strong and realize that your life means a lot to a lot of people. And if you do something stupid you will destroy them spiritually. You will totally destroy the ones you love and thqt love you. Better days are ahead, whether you can see them or not. Please feel free to e-mail me if you'd like.
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