Posted by August (208.161.103.136) on August 12, 2001 at 20:41:21:
it feels like you spend so much time fighting to just hang on, that everything else falls apart. There's no balance to your life, it's all one-sided razor twisting pain. The people you count on to love you, to stay....can't take anymore either.
Sometimes i wonder if it's best to just hide in a hole and never hurt anyone by your existence....like a mercy for them, that they don't have to deal with it anymore, deal with you anymore.
I come to the board and i want to join in,....but i can't find anything anymore to laugh about.
In the background i'm trying to do things to help. I'm trying...
Sometimes....are becoming too many times.