Posted by Elizabeth (65.31.96.227) on September 10, 2001 at 18:06:18:
Friday I had 87 headaches.
[if you're even THINKING about emailing me to tell me that's not possible, then stop thinking)
Indocin didn't work. The Neurontin isn't working yet.
Today - well, I'm on #23...
9 of them felt like someone smacked me in the back of the head with a baseball bat; 5 were in/behind my left eye and lasted over 20 minutes; 9 were in/behind my left eye and lasted less than 20 minutes (one was only 2 minutes, but literally floored me - can't wait to see the bruises).
Ice hasn't been helping at all the past several days - I can't tolerate having anything touching my head. I'm exhausted! I'm not sleeping well; the HA wake me up at least twice an hour, that is if I can sleep.
My dad is (or at least seems to be...) angry with me for having these headaches. He won't listen to anything I have to say about them. I want to tell him that often the pain is so bad that I want to...just get rid of the part of my head that's hurting. I'm so tired of crying alone. I'm so scared. Whatever this is, it's not typical CPH. The MRI/MRA was normal, so what is it?
This is really getting me down.
I can't think.
I can't eat. (yet I'm gaining weight - go figure...)
If I can eat, I throw it up from the pain.
I whine almost constantly.
F*ck has become my new favorite word - it comes out almost every time a stabbing pain hits.
And I'm becoming a real downer....
Thanks for listening,
Elizabeth