Posted by MikeB on November 05, 2001 at 20:44:33:
Sigh. I know I get on here and whine and complain from time to time. Like it or not, I reckon I get on the board and talk about the real stuff going on in my life. LOL. Anyway, I have just have been informed that my Grandfather is about to pass on. Within hours. From what I gather, he is basically drowning to death. Lungs full of fluid and in a coma. I am proud to say that my grandfather is a WWII vet and has always been the kind of man who epitomizes the best in a southern gentleman. He has always been there for all of his family. Hmmph. Bunch of memories that are inexpressible without the context of my life. Aww, hell he is a really good man whom I love a whole hell of a lot and I just hope he knows how much we all love him. Geez. So, the call has gone out. Be there or be square. My life is already in such a mess that, by going at this crucial moment, it will certainly cause me even more difficulties. However, that is not significant at this point to me. My family has asked me to come help and that is what I should do. Regardless. So, tonight or early tomorrow morning, I am gonna somehow come up with the gas money and just do it. Climb in my car with some clothes, cross my fingers and go. Hell or high water. I can maybe not do a lot of things these days. I am so sick and tired of being called worthless and lazy and a bunch of other crap because of problems I have been having related to work, money, health and CH's. Humiliating and maddening. Makes me get pretty upset I reckon. So, I can still be there for my grandad and my grandmother and my family. If nothing else to help my grandmother and father. Perform some ceremonies to honor my grandfather and help his passage into the other world. So maybe I am asking for a prayer here. Just a little prayer that my grandad will not suffer too much and his journey will be a good one and that everything will all work out in a good way. I don't know. Wishing you all a good night and PF time. Be safe and happy. Love, MikeB