Posted by Carolyn (208.212.32.131) on January 27, 2002 at 10:26:33:
I am so damn frustrated and angry and depressed. I simply do not have a life anymore. I am sitting here crying as I write this. I have tried so hard to maintain my composure and stay positive with this cycle, but it is working so hard to defeat me. The prednisone burst had no effect. I am too afraid of the imitrex injections to actually use them and have been continuing with the tablets...some nights work others not at all. My father died of a heart attack and I have an irrational fear that the imitrex will cause me to have one. The tablets do cause me to have quite a bit of discomfort...tight chest..but, am not sure if I am not just having an anxiety attack because of my fear. Is the injection any more likely to cause adverse effects than the tablets? I am just worn out with trying to decide what medication to take each night.
I just feel so out of control right now. Today was supposed to be a nice unusually warm day and I was sooo looking forward to enjoying it...now am so wiped out from last night's hell all I can do is sit and shake and cry.
No point to this really, just whining..hopefully I'll get it back together later on. Thanks for listening.