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Kevin_M
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Re: Met My 1st CHead and witnessed a hit...
« Reply #25 on: Dec 19th, 2004, 11:11pm » |
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on Dec 19th, 2004, 10:33pm, ClusterChuck wrote:It could be that I accept letting clusterheads seeing me, but do whatever I can to prevent outsiders from seeing me.
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I don't know either, preventing anyone near is first choice.
I guess as long as no one interacts to prevent me from doing what I need to do, and don't overreact to, or interrupt what I do, that's all, 'cause I'll be alright.
ONE, nonclusterhead friend knows that.
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Re: Met My 1st CHead and witnessed a hit...
« Reply #26 on: Dec 19th, 2004, 11:26pm » |
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i don't get many Kip 10s at all. in this cycle, i've only had two. usually they are k6-7 for me. do i want people around me when i get hit, no. sometimes i get hit while at work, and i do what i need to do through the pain: meet deadlines, pass out meds, etc. i won't talk to you unless i can give you a short answer or direction, usually. sometimes i'm so agitated by the pain that i don't want to shut up, and i talk to myself. but, there's a huge difference between a k6 and a k10. with a k10 i want no one around unless they're going to shoot me with meds or a gun. holding my hand--i can't imagine that--usually i'm just very agitated and pissed at the pain. i don't want comfort during an attack, i usually want to attack something back.
after an attack, i might be okay with someone i'm really close to consoling me, but mostly i want to pretend that nothing happened and either sleep or get on with life.
however, not everyone responds the same way to pain, and there are different levels of pain. i do strange things when i'm in mild to moderate pain, usually doing some activity, hoping it will distract me, and i can pretend that i don't hurt as much as i do. severe pain, and i'm just angry and scared.
i'm not willing to say this story is bullsheet yet, but many of you have been on these boards much, much, much longer than i have, and i trust that you have reasons for being negative at times.
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Re: Met My 1st CHead and witnessed a hit...
« Reply #27 on: Dec 20th, 2004, 10:01am » |
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red, that's not the greatest pic of the bruise. Can't even tell if it's the inside or outside of your arm? If it's the outside I don't think I've ever intentionally shot myself that low. (Never gone inside) I stick to high on the shoulder if I haven't run out of recent shot site real estate. I switch shoulders every other shot. Somehow my shoulder never bruises (sometimes I get a teeny spot) if I stay up high.
I've tried thigh other spots and my shoulder always works out best. But that's just me. I guess everyone's body's different.
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Re: Met My 1st CHead and witnessed a hit...
« Reply #28 on: Dec 20th, 2004, 10:57am » |
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I hit the same as Marlin, works the best for me. I can put it in a little to the side instead hitting straight down.
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Re: Met My 1st CHead and witnessed a hit...
« Reply #29 on: Dec 20th, 2004, 11:11am » |
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I still don't understand why you don't believe this. Just because you react one way doesn't mean everyone does. For the most part, I'd rather be alone during a bad hit. Should one of my loved ones get near me, I don't lash out at them...they sure as hell didn't cause the pain! My last k10 (in the ER), my hubby kept his hands on my shoulders, so that when I was banging my head against the wall, he could pull me back just enough to keep me from knocking myself out. He knew better than to try and stop me from banging altogether, but I knew enough that he was just trying to help me out.
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Re: Met My 1st CHead and witnessed a hit...
« Reply #30 on: Dec 20th, 2004, 11:41am » |
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on Dec 19th, 2004, 6:47pm, Jonny wrote:| When im squeezing my head as hard as any vice could..... the last thing I want is to hold hands.... |
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Right...... ! 
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Re: Met My 1st CHead and witnessed a hit...
« Reply #31 on: Dec 20th, 2004, 5:46pm » |
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Personally, I am not "me" when I get hit, and don't want anyone to see what I become during a 10 hit. Unfortunately, my niece and nephew are two people in the world I wish had never witnessed a hit, but they have, and little Elijah is the only one I can really keep my composure for, and I send him off.
Witnessing someone else get hit is a brutal experience, especially when you know what the pain is.
Peace and PFD&N,
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Re: Met My 1st CHead and witnessed a hit...
« Reply #32 on: Dec 20th, 2004, 6:29pm » |
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Carl D said"
Quote:| I am not "me" when I get hit, and don't want anyone to see what I become during a 10 hit. |
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and that is absolutely correct. Except where another clusterhead AND friend is concerned. They KNOW I am not ME.
What Cat is talking about is the New York conv. and the first time I've ever accepted someone around me. What everyone has already said... that there is this silent pact/agreement/comfort thing going on...yeah!
strangers however are a different ball-game. I get away from them as soon as the first twinge occurs.
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