Posted by Todd Owen (18.104.22.168) on March 20, 2000 at 19:06:04:
Another day off of work because of the beast. More hours shot just trying to make it through. I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. I hope it's there, I feel like I'm stumbling along blindly.
The only thing giving me hope right now is my wife. She is telling me that the last time my clusters started to get this frequent and severe was right before the end of my last two episodes. God I hope so. One of those days where you go to take a shower in the morning and spend most of your time on the floor from the pain. Plenty drugged up later, the beast is beaten down. No way I'm driving in to work though. So spend the day at home. Try and sleep off the painkillers, but the beast finds me again in my slumber.
I'm hitting a 6 1/2 right now. It's down from the 8 is was half an hour ago. It's getting to be too much anymore. I need a break from the pain, a day where the beast is gone and I can enjoy life without feeling sore from injecting myself or dopey from painkillers. A day to go have fun with my wife and kids without the beast interfering.
I can only hope my wife is right...
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