Posted by George (207.15.162.71) on April 12, 2001 at 17:10:37:
I don't know what or why I found your site today. Maybe a slow day in my office and still the mystery of my wife's death lies upon me. We did not know what it was. She kept complaining of these headaches. She kept telling me how bad they were. She kept crying, They kept running scans. Months past, she couldn’t work anymore, she would lay in bed. A beautiful 36 year old that was out to conquer the world with a journalism degree, she says, “fell from grace” with these awful headaches. She would cry to me and tell me that they were making her want to die. She would beg me to believe her how bad they were, how serious they were. I watched her, I tired to help her, but I just did not know what to do. She would call me at my office and plead with me to help her, she would tell me she was going to die because she could not live with the pain. She told me I was her only hope and to please please please believe her that the pain was just that over whelming. I believed her, but I was limited on what I could make the neurologist, the surgeons and the MD’s do. I buried my dear wife three weeks ago, after I found her dead. She apparently could not take the pain any longer and overdosed on a bottle of painkillers. She often begged me not to let her do it, but apparently she was caught without 24-hour care. She went from a young active participating happy newlywed to a crippling, unhealthy, and very unhappy young lady that could no longer enjoy her life. There is no doubt in my mind, the headaches killed her, her headache diary indicated just that, how she was so happy with her life, so happy with her position, yet so unhappy with the enduring pain that had broken down an active female. I know my wife is in heaven, she was and is a beautiful person that went thru 9 months of pure unjustifying hell. She often warned me of how bad it was, she often told me how she could not go on with this pain. I guess I just kept praying and hoping for a cure. I guess she just could not take it anymore. It was just that bad on her, it crippled her to no return. A beautiful, beautiful, tanned, blonde model of a gal, broken down to where she was almost un recognizable to friends. At least now in heaven, she is herself again. I miss her terribly and I must wonder had she known about this site, would it of given her some kind of releif. She was so much alone with being in and out of the doctors offices. So much alone and in so much pain.