Posted by Brad W. (65.166.14.144) on September 30, 2001 at 02:40:29:
that it is harder to try to be considerate of your family. The damn beast hits at night after a long day and your family is resting or asleep. How do you bang your head, pace, cry, yell and punch things quietly?
I feel like I'm gonna lose it at times. Just tired, I guess. Wanted to get on here and vent a little because all I can think about is the ER right now. I hate the ER, but I've been at kip 10 twice already tonight. Still not through for the night and don't know if I can make it without pain management.
The O2 isn't working and my meds aren't either. I think I have bruises on my forehead from the constant pounding I've given it. My mother doesn't understand this and tells me that it is making it worse. She won't read this site. What a shame because it would explain so much to her. One good thing is that she has seen the difference in my behavior and pain levels since I've found the site. The therapy that I find here is simply amazing. Thank you DJ!
Gonna go hit the O2 again. Never know it might help this time.
Peace
Brad