Posted by Phaedrus (188.8.131.52) on July 19, 2001 at 08:12:26:
It's now 8 days since my last night of continous sleep. I'm at the very end of my wit. I'm a grown man and yet every night I feel like f*****g crying. I feel like it right now. Great...I just started before I got to finish that last sentence.
I'm in hell. They hit every hour and a half to 2 hours apart when I go to sleep. They hit when I'm awake too. I'm more tired than I've ever been in my life...but I'm terrified to go to sleep. My thighs have black, blue, and yellow bruises from repeated imitrex injections in the area. I take about 4-5 per every 24 hours. Plus they're beg. to fail me. I know this sounds crazy, and it never happened before, but I swear the Imitrex now aggravates the pain to an even higher level before it makes it go away...
I'm only 21 years old. I'm supposed to live my life now. I've got tons of friends who understand, who took the time to come to this site and read what it is that's killing me...but they can't do anything. I've got an ex-girlfriend and great friend coming to visit for the weekend. She's coming tomorrow. I've known for a week and had all these plans to prepare. I haven't been able to do anything. I look terrible. I've been in constant pain for 8 consecutive days, and I don't know how many more I can take. And I can't do anything to fix this. The only relief I've gotten from this hell is the fact that I'm crying right now, and that seems to be getting some stuff out. But how long will that last?
Now the medical side of this, and the actual purpose of this post. I took Verapamil a long time ago, 240, then 480, and then stopped for it failed me, after a long period of time. Now the lithium appear to be doing the same thing. It worked at 300 2x a day...then failed. It was upped to 300 3x a day 2 days ago...no results as of yet(scaring the s**t out of me). So now I'm being allowed to add 240mgs of Verap to make my first ever Lith/Verap cocktail. I'm going to the pharmacy to pick up the Verap when it opens in 45 mins.
Can this work? Does anyone know what the dosages of such a cocktail shoud be/usually are? I mentioned Jonny in the subject line because I read many of your posts dealing with exactly this type of cocktail. Any info on it at all would be appreciated. Or any other info on anything, from anyone. Please give me some hope. I've got little else left after this week of hell. I'm going to go wash the tears of my face because they're starting to burn, and get ready to go pick up the Verap. Thank you for listening...
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